My verbal tone doesn't match my intention to create peace and the content of my messages get lost. My tone matches my feelings. Lately, I'm afraid. I act like a caged animal at all the wrong times. When others become empathetic, I feel pathetic and weak which just makes me angry. The nurses around me start with their therapeutic language setting boundaries around the expression of my feelings as if I could seal them into a nice pretty little box and set it up on a high shelf. Then, I get more afraid and snarl even more. It's as if I am purposefully sabotaging myself. I have to figure out how to stop acting like this.
